Today I was published. An letter written as a simple email to someone I know stirred something deep in him, and he asked to publish it.
I bumbled for words and finally explained.
I had planned to share that story at some point, when God said it was time. For those initial few moments, I went from feeling honored to figuring out how to let him tell the story and still be able to write it and publish it as my story. In the flash of thought, somehow my spirit had the sense to ask how I would still be able to tell my story, and just behind my ear, in a calm and gentle whisper, I heard, "Jerri, it's not your story."
The flurry of thought stopped.
No, it isn't my story. It's His story.
I had been waiting to tell it until He said the time was right, until He said it would bless people.
"Well, if you think it'll bless people..." I heard my self say.
"It will," his voice came through the phone.
"Then absolutely. Share the story."
And so he did.
My name removed. Personal details graciously removed as well. There is no way to tell I had anything to do with it, and that is what I hope people see.
Often, I find myself wondering how my stories ever make a difference. They are just ordinary stories of an ordinary person. But the Lord reminds me that the Bible is full of stories of ordinary people who made an extraordinary difference. Actually, the Bible is one story...with a crazy cast of broken and messed up characters...and an insanely un-ordinary God who did extraordinary things through them...and sometimes in spite of them. It's His story.
I am His story.
So many of you feel so ordinary, and you wonder what difference your stories make...what difference your life makes. You wonder if anyone cares. He cares because your story is His story, and you may feel utterly broken and messed up...so join the cast....let Him do extraordinary things through you...and sometimes in spite of you...tell your story...and see what the wholly un-oridinary God does with it. Expect Him to do something amazing because after all...
...you are His story...
...and you an extraordinary one.